'Goals After Graduation – Essay Essay\r'

'When I found emerge I was going to be a amaze for the world-class fourth dimension I had feelings wash over me that I n invariably knew you could feel altogether in all at once. Some feelings I suddenly felt I didn’t even know existed until that very moment. sit there thinking around having a c atomic number 18er inside me to care for and love, yet at the alike clip thinking I am to new, not ready, under educated, and merely plain scared to death. whole I knew is I wanted nothing more than than to subscribe a babe that I have waited for, for so long. While I was expecting I had such(prenominal) dreams of what that blessed event would be like, could be like. I was very guilty of setting my expectations too advanced for something I knew absolutely nothing about.\r\nBeing a first judgment of conviction mother who had read both conceivable magazine, book, and internet web site on the subject of giving birth I considered myself to be an expert. It was about t he same time as the first labor pains started that I forgot everything I had ever read in my entire behavior; not just everything I had ever read about giving birth. During the lulls between the hours of labor pains I would still imagine what my child would be like.\r\nAt that very moment when I went into labor (August 4, 1995) with my fille Kaitylyn, all that seemed unimportant. The only thing that matter was comprehend my daughter and livinging her for the very first time! I first saw her face fleck I was delivering her and I remember her little mouthpiece quivering right before she cried her first cry. At that very moment I felt a peace with her and I wash over me and all I wanted was to take my daughter and hold her forever. When they took and placed my daughter in my arms I could not speak nor could I do anything, nevertheless look into that little face and be amazed at the miracle lying in my arms.\r\nThen the feelings started race over me all at once prodigal and fl eetingly. First came love which never went away and I know never will! After came vexation which, was quickly replaced by de shapeination. Determination that I would brigh cristal the best life for her that I could. Then came satisfaction! Joy that my little girl had all ten toes and fingers and was doing great. Then came overwhelming feelings that even now I pile’t find the one term to categorize them in. Feelings of pure wonderment, pride, and motherly love are the only way I can ever explain.\r\nLooking into those little brown eyes cognise we would be just fine that life had just begun, for not just her, but also for me. I was a mother and her life depended on mine. I was unafraid. I knew deep in my heart this child was a fresh start in life and that I was strong enough, determined enough to coif sure we could take on life.\r\nNow sixteen years later I know that proper a mother for the first time can be the hardest thing in the world. Now at thirty eight years old I have three children and it is clear to me that not all the feelings of becoming a mother for the first time go away after the first time! I still have feelings that I had and then like fear, hope, and yes the second guessing my choices. However, seeing the young adult my daughter has become lets me know WE WOULD BE FINE!\r\n'